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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
edited
some people ought to grow up and have some sense of urgency huh.
its getting on my nerves, really.
i totally despise empty talks.
so much for talking big,
apparently it seems like they were all but a pack of lies.
i've made an effort to salvage anything that i could,
but this setback really makes me want to give up.
you certainly dont know how much i want you,
you certainly dont know how much it hurts.
whatever
baby's out of town for today.
pouts, i cant contact her to throw a tantrum.
=(((
school's starting next week.
i aint gonna dye back my hair?
haha, i've got backup. like real
i reckon the first person susan catches is me.
wa lao, four years of susan is really enough.
and fortunately,she's follwing me to aj for my first 3 months.
WOW, YAAAYY! =|
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i lost my train of thoughts,
resulting in the abrupt stop above.
HEE :D
okay, i dont see anything funny in that,
pardon the HEE :D okay?
i just came back from my run you see!
and i'm really happy,
because i maintained my pace all the way.
and this i one of the best runs in erm ages?
digressing, i finally understood the real meaning of
dont judge a book by its cover.
let me give you one greeeaaaattt example.
reyes baby; despite her beng-ish look,
(not commented by me, of cos. but by others)
she's real gentle by nature.
yes, i'm serious.
moreover, i realised that i've been really really childish to bear grudges against people whom never offeneded me directly before. i'm sorry
we unite to exterminate the fkkt,
how i miss the balls.
sometimes, i feel that someone should give me a slap on the face.
repent rae, repent.
i want to make myself a better person. nodds
mean beans somehow grew inside me today.
digressing, i went blogsurfing!
and somehow i got enlightened that some people's english really really suck.
click here please.
pleasse go read at her entries.
i almost died laughing.
and of cos, the - tagger was me.
(i told you i'm mean today.)
another one, i had this person spelling 'except' as 'accept'.
gaaawwwdddd, whats their standard of english man!
on a lighter note,
i simply ♥ my pink razr.
I BOUGHT MY MOTOROLA PINK RAZR!
:DDDDDD
i aint got any idea that an entrance fee to the singapore zoo costed me a whole 15bucks.
animals got smelly dung,okay, which living animal, including humans, dont?
anyway, the cows moomoo until so cute!
the grin on awmingming's face says it all. :D
(she's crazy over cows, btw.)
okay, the stupid rain get us trapped in the shelter.
delaying us of precious mintues looking at more animals.
our ticket could have been more worth! HAHA
the zoo's a really interesting place, make it yr outing the next time round okay guys?
(its great exercise too, haha.)
yuppyupp, headed for marinabay to eat steamboat.
we sat there from 6+ until 10+.
who could have believed we ate for so long!
not to mention, we ate really alot.
its damn cheap only!
10bucks per person, buffet.(:
comes with satay, icecream and transport to and fro the mrt station.
HOW GREAT IS THAT!
ps, we ate damn many prawns.:DDD
okay, i sound so auntie.
cheap cheap cheap!
like how mdmfaridah always says,
it totally sounds like birds in the sky.
chip chip chip!
if you dont get it, nevermind.
i really had a great time yesterday!
i love joleen mingming wanru manel.
i love yq, and myself!
HOHO, ROARS.
the aftermath,
i'm suffering from lack of sleep.
i was rushing to finish my last disc of love story in havard the previous night.
and by the time i started watching, it was already midnight.
(i got back home really late,
yes i lost quite alot in a couple of games wif my classmates.)
love story in harvard, the ending's perfect.
:D the baddie became good, and he's so cute.
the sleep i had for the past two nights were meagre.
=(
you know, sometimes i really despise myself for being so malevolent.
cant i just give my blessings to others?
raaaahh, i really dont know.
till then,
i love you, byebye.:)
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
baby's kenzoflower smell has been flooding all aspects and places of my lfe.(:
her jacket's filled wid it,
and so is my chicky bolster,
plus the whole of my room.
and now, my very own office room in my dad's office.
(i'm the manager, thats why i've got my own room okay.)
yes, but i'm so glad.
cos her smell makes me feel her presence even more.:DDD
as i've mentioned, my dad's a fuckard.
he spoke to my sis, asking her why i suddenly changed to become like that?
becoming a lesbian, and doing all the rebellious stuff.
ha, what can i say?
i've always been like that.
just that discovering my r/s wif reyes brings in all flaws of mine.
you know what, whatever.
speaking of which,
it has dawned upon me that
whatever lah, rachel chin
somehow sounds so cliche.
i recall the person who used this phrase almost everyday,
all the hung-ups and stuff.
somehow, i've developed a sense of hatred whenever i hear this phrase.
looking through my archives,
someone told me that God made me special.
and that the ordinary me is the most special.
are things still the same now?
you know what,
sometimes, even i myself despise myself.
christmas's coming.
one year has passed since that fateful day my granddad passed away last christmas.
it seems like a blink of the eye, (another cliche here)
major Os are over, friendships and relationships made and broken.
my dynamic, or should i say stubborn nature hasnt seemed to change.
yet, on a lighter note,
i aint holding any grudges against past enemies anymore. (:
what i want for christmas this year?
reyes, or should i say,
i already have her.
all i want for christmas is you.
not to mention, thank God that reyes passed her Nlevel.
she was expecting a fail?
and much to her surprise, she passed.:D HOHO
she's such a silly bum lah!
she bluffed me that she failed,
causing me to be at a loss on how to comfort her and stuff.
good thing i got this great friend who let the cat out of the bag.(:
i think i'm in trouble.
watching love story in havard has inspired me to become a lawyer.
ohh gawwwddd, i reckon its like passing interest.
korean directors are sadistic,
cant they like ever give a happy ending to couples?
AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!?!
MY SISTER SPOILT MY DAMN NICE BLINGBLING GUESS WATCH.
=(((
raaaahh, so much for my random thoughts for now.
limewire just pissed me off?
i was happily downloading the songs from dirty dancing 2,
and it suddenly shut down and cancelled all my downloads!
damn, and i cant be bothered to start downloading them all again.
dirty dancing 2's such a great show, by the way.
digressing, rainbow connection's such a stupid show.
for hell's sake, they CANT dance?!
watch dirty dancing 2 and make a comparison man. ggaaaawwwddddd
yes yes, like i was saying,
technology failed on me,
causing a series of foul tantrums.
i reckon i'll bite now.
on a lighter and happier note,
i bought new stuff!
i spent abt three hundred bucks in 2 days.
nike bag and nike shoes costed a bomb.
and i got myself the adidas 80's watch!
can play power ranger wif reyes, my sister and momo. :D
okay, i realised i stop pms-ing!
thats really good.(:
i wonder how's baby now.
N level results are out today you see.
i think my dad's such a fuckard.
relationship damn bad,
ever since my parents discovered my r/s wid reyes.
nonetheless, still holding on strong. (:
so much for now,
i'm back to watching my love story in harvard!
my luck, just as everyone commented.
i deem it yr sense of bad taste.
some saying it goes, a toad wanting to eat swan's meat or something?
argghh, whatever.
yes rae, the ugly fugly duckling.
what a stab.
some people just change for the worse, or i mean worst.
you know what,
i think i really dont give a damn.
so much for my ramblings huh.
shut up rae, stop talking like a bitch.
on a lighter note,
i'm going to the zoo next week!
and i reckon, it may be the earliest ime i'm meeting baby.
=( been hell long since i met her.
boohoohoo.
and also, i'm gonna meet my dearest friends.
and all the stinky animals.
hohoho.
i'm comtemplating on going for a run at abt two in the morning tomorrow.
should i?
raahhh, i'm still pissed.
but nevermind, i always get the last laugh.
you'll get it for treating me like a fool.
one last time, stop ranting like a bitch rae!
see, i've got spilt personality.
whats up wid me today!
baby reyes, you're such an angel.
to, someone(:
thank you for the tip.:D
greatly appreciated.
thanks ya.
today, i finally ran after 6 whole months lazing ard?!
ha, i do feel good actually.
just that i was taken aback by the fatty i see in front of the mirror.
i almost suffered a major heart attack.
what a sense of humor.
anyway, havent been at the best of moods this few days.
baby and zq volunteered to beat up the troublemaker.
wait till i find out who that fuckard is.
till then, mood has been swinging real bad.
poor baby got cold treatment from me today.=(
i attended a wedding last night.
and finally, i got to wear this pair of boots which i bought from australia that costed me 129.90 australian dollars.
it was meant for prom, but apparently i didnt go for prom!
but yay, i finally get to wear it.
not to mention, the air indeed is fresher 7cm higher.
just in case you fail to understand the above sentence,
my boots are 7cm high. (:
circus performance this morning.
swiss dream, if i didnt get the title wrong.
i got the best seats in the house because my daddy's friend sponsered that particular show for charity purposes.
ahhh, i miss my sister plus mingming plus wanru.
someone(:'s so nice,
and she really brightens up my day! :DDD
yes yes, i'm back.
apparently, i really didnt come online and hell, didnt know what exactly was going on.
my blog's hot, as quoted from joleen.
looks like i've gotta say something.
THE TOP PART, IT ALL STARTED FROM THE LYRICS PART LAH.
I DID GET THE IDEA FROM THERE, AS I WAS BLOGSURFING.
AND APPARENTLY, I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO REMOVE THE BLOGGER BAR ON TOP.
SO I TOOK MAINE'S CODE, (THAT CERTAIN PART ONLY, I STRESS)
SO THAT THE DAMN FUCKING BLOGGER BAR WOULD NOT APPEAR.
HAPPY NOW?
ORIGINALITY'S STILL MINE,
THIS TEMPLATE IS JUST A MODERATION OF THE PREVIOUS ONE.
OKAY?!?!?!
people, stop fighting.
thank you for those who stood by me.
to that fuckard,
thanks for creating so much trouble ya.
you hate me so much, come find me.
dont need to resort to such despicable method to spoil my reputation.
i do admit i'm at fault.
MAINE, sorry okay.
things in life began to take on a brighter side,
baby's back.(((:
i've got my cellphone back.
i'm going to the beach tomorrow!
i'm not going to spend 2 nights at home.
now, i feel fresh air.
friends, i cant do without.
awmingming to suddenly call me to tell me her heartfelt words,
i'm cute! HAHAHA.
okay, i bet she wont admit again.
cherylleong, to have such a great conversation wid me!
my reyes, her kaay. (:
so much for now,
i'm back to chasing my korean drama.
i'll follow you whatever place you may go. be it heaven.
"its possible that person might have loved her more than i did, but im not saying that i loved her less than that person did."
when i return, i will paint a painting for u here as a present-a world with no sadness, no separation,no pain- heaven.
hmms, this template is somewhat similar to my previous previous one aint it?
(be my witness readers, aint the previous previous one somewhat similar to this?)
all i did was to change the positioning and some minor html of my previous template,
does it mean it traces back to my previous template being unoriginal?
yes, my html skills may be limited,
but this template is solely done by me.(ages ago)
i admit i did get the idea of putting some words on top,
but other than that,
i must say, plain coincidence.
i know the exact feeling of a stolen template too okay.
my original template got stolen too,
and caught red-handed by me.
arrrgghhh, whatever.
the world is so small.
things are just THIS CONCIDENTAL.
EXCUSE ME.
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all's fine now.
the feeling of being maligned totally sucks.
and its times like this that i really need the baby.
sighs, somehow her smell keeps coming to me.=(
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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